Friday, June 29, 2007

When is it enough?

Here's how my morning goes. Get up. Turn on the computer. Start reading the news. Catch this bit right off. Then head over here. Then I wait for a phone call. And I pretty much hold my breath until I get it.


Blogger Peacechick Mary said...


Sorry, but that's the word that shoots out of my head every time I see this news. Anyone who is upset with this war, multiply that times a zillion and you will know how it feels to have a loved one over there.

6/29/2007 09:23:00 AM  
Blogger No said...

It fuckin' sucks...sorry for my language...but hell, what else can you say?

6/29/2007 09:48:00 AM  
Blogger Mary said...

No- It's times like these when the f word comes in handy.

Peacechick- You said it.

6/29/2007 09:55:00 AM  
Blogger dawn said...

Well if the f word is appropriate then Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I know you need to look but I don't know how good that is for you. I don't even know what to say Mary, but my prayers are always for michael and your family. All I can do is sigh and hope that this blogging gets you through the day. Try to have a nice weekend

6/29/2007 10:09:00 AM  
Blogger Donnie McDaniel said...

Those asshats! Time to end this insanity now. I am growing tired of telling those idiots how wrong this is. I feel a rant coming on! I think I will pass those on to the Reaper and sit back while he goes balistic!

6/29/2007 10:14:00 AM  
Blogger Dizzy Dezzi said...

Mary, I can totally relate to what you are going through and it's hard not to "look", especially when it could be days or more before you hear from him that everything is just "peachy". Days like this are the most anxious. My thoughts are with you; hang in there!

Reading the news has got me in a holding pattern. SSG Dizzy says there's no way they will boost (up) his deployment, but days like today make me feel unsure about such things.

Take a deep breath ;)

6/29/2007 10:27:00 AM  
Blogger Babzy said...

Mary, I had no idea you have a loved one in Iraq. I'm so sorry you have to worry like this every day.

6/29/2007 11:02:00 AM  
Blogger The Follow Spot said...

Keep positive thoughts in your mind

6/29/2007 01:49:00 PM  
Blogger supergirlest said...

i just simultaneously got a knot in my stomach and started crying at the same time. you sure packed a whollup of emotion into 8 sentences.

it's bad enough on my end, and we have just now learned that a dear old friend of will's is being shipped out soon. i can't even imagine. i don't know how you do this. but i know i'll be doing the same sort of checking once she is there.

6/29/2007 02:55:00 PM  
Blogger Peacechick Mary said...

I've been thinking of you all day - just sending you lots of good thoughts, courage and love.

6/29/2007 03:27:00 PM  
Blogger Oceanshaman said...

My heart clenched and my eyes welled up as I followed your links . . .

My prayers are with you, as well as all the good energy I can muster . . .

We just got off the phone with the therapist for my younger one at the camp in NC . . . he's doing great, and really coming along, it seems . . .

6/29/2007 04:27:00 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

Dawn- Blogging and all my blogging friends definitely help.

Donnie- Yes. I could do w/a good sermon.

Dezzi- Yes I don't blame you for doubting what they say. I always feel the same way about any promises they make.
I'm breathing. Thanks.

Babzy- You know I just want this nightmare of a war to end. All this senseless killing.

Mark- That is very good advice and I will do.

Supergirlest- I hate when I hear of others being shipped out. I've heard it a lot this week too. I wish they would stop sending them. Michael SHOULD come home in Oct. if they don't pull another fast one. He fully expects to be sent back also.

Peacechick- You are the best. Thank you. I will take it all.

Oceanshaman- Thank you. Glad to hear your son is doing well.

6/29/2007 06:16:00 PM  
Blogger Carla said...

I don't even know how to comment on that. I think of him anytime I hear a report like that but don't dare say anything to you cuz I figure I don't need to add to your Hell. But I always think it.
sad, sad, sad.

6/29/2007 07:03:00 PM  
Blogger The Future Was Yesterday said...

I haven't had nightmares about Nam for years, except for the occasional one, but they're coming back as I follow this "war." It's SO identical.... I read a question asked on a blog a few days ago: "what will we run out of first? Young Men and Women, or Bush days in office?"

This isn't going to just miraculously stop with his departure.......

6/29/2007 10:03:00 PM  
Blogger Melissa said...

Hi there,

I lurk around your site every once in a while. I just wanted to let you know I know how you feel, and it is the most gut-wrenching awful existence imaginable. My husband has been deployed to Iraq and other places in the middle east several times and checking that casualties site was/is an all too familiar activity of mine. Hang in there as best you can.

6/29/2007 11:58:00 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

Carla-Awww. You can say anything to me. PS- Got home w/my $45 wire and it was WRONG. Sorry still more waiting.

TUA- Good but depressing question. We have a long row to hoe. And meanwhile we are losing soldiers.

Melissa- I just want to get through the first deployment. I know a 2nd is inevitable but I can't imagine getting through it. Thank you for the support.

6/30/2007 07:15:00 AM  
Blogger Shrink Wrapped Scream said...

Mary, I feel so inadequete to comment, I (thank God) do not walk in your shoes. You walk in them with grace, determination and, I'm sure, with the stark terror of knowing your precious son is in such danger. We all pray for this madness to end, and for everyones son/brother/husband to return home, back where they belong. God bless, bonny lass.

6/30/2007 07:38:00 AM  
Blogger ┬┐Yh8? said...

I cannot offer any words of comfort when times are so full of uncertainty. I really wish I could.

I can however tell you that my kind of militant artisans are vigorously trying to use what weapons we have, be it legal or not so legal forms of art as a way of swaying public opinion.

If what they say is true when they claim that "Art Influences Life Influences Art", then maybe we can make a difference through our art.

Anyway, my kind are increasing efforts infiltrate mainstream society with a better way of thinking. Here is one example I thought you could appreciate.

Yo, What Happened to Peace?

6/30/2007 11:52:00 AM  
Blogger enigma4ever said...

Mary....I am so sorry....It is hard to Say Fuck at the WhiteHouse, and at the same time light incense and send many prayers and light your way...This is SOOOO wrong....many hugs friend....many.

6/30/2007 01:54:00 PM  
Blogger QUASAR9 said...

lol, you blog junkie
Need some time in rehab!

6/30/2007 02:19:00 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

SWS- Thank you. You say it so beautifully.

Yh8?- I love what you do. I really do. What a positive way to react. And thank you for that link its awesome.

Enigma-LOL. Yes the fuck vs. prayer thing is a hard balancing act.

Quasar- I don't know what you mean.

6/30/2007 06:17:00 PM  
Blogger Coffee Messiah said...

I'm so sorry to ever hear you having to worry about your son! ; (

Our thoughts are with him and your family until he gets back home safely, as with the others thousands also!!!!

6/30/2007 07:08:00 PM  
Blogger Lori said...

Oh my god, that is powerful. Reading this post helped me feel just a tiny bit of what you and other soilders families feel constantly.

6/30/2007 10:57:00 PM  
Blogger Lynn@ZelleBlog said...

Sorry, Mary. Know that many people are thinking of you. Sorry is the only thing I can say.

6/30/2007 11:20:00 PM  
Blogger Babzy said...

Mary, I think Quasar just read your post without looking at the links or the comments. He/she probably thought you were describing your mornings as blogging addict and need to go to rehab.

Anyway I've been thinking about you and all the other parents and spouses of our troops. Be strong.

7/01/2007 12:49:00 AM  
Blogger Hayden said...

thinking of you Mary, and the incredible strength it takes to be you.

7/01/2007 09:58:00 AM  
Blogger Mary said...

CM- Everytime I find myself wallowing too deep in my own worry and sadness I think of what EVERYONE over there must be enduring. I'm glad so many are mindful of them too.

Lori- That was exactly my intention. I'm glad I accomplished it. Kiss that baby for me.

Lynn-I know. I'm sorry too.

Babzy- Thanks for clearing that up for me. I couldn't understand.

Still waiting for that phone call.

7/01/2007 10:18:00 AM  
Blogger Katie McKenna said...

It is really stressful for you and everyone that has a loved one over there. It is really sad that there appears to be no end to this.

7/01/2007 10:22:00 AM  

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